Ma, remember this beautiful flowers? these are your most favourite flower.... wenever these flowers blossom, u will look at it and smile to youself.

as far as i noe, these flowers blooms once a year and oni blooms at midnite.but eversince after u left this world and step into a better place, these flowers had been blossoms quite often.....

3rd of December marks a special day for Ta Jie. yes, thats the day u brought her into this world Ma.

we got her a birthday cake and wen we were singign birthday song for her, i look at her face. Happy + Sad.

her sad looks was telling us that Mama is not with us today. it hurt us so much ...

if im the one that is making the birthday wish, i wish that i cud turn bek the time and make sure that u're always healthy ...

the other day i was at MP, sum shop turn on CNY song. i quikly walk off and nearly burst out to tears. unlike the past years, my heart sure to jump to joy wen i listen to CNY song .. but tis time..my heart break into pieces. for the past few years, CNY is the oni occasion where we will be going out together in a family and visit relatives and enjoying ourselves ... but tis time...i just dono how to go thru it without u ...

months has pass by ... the missing game is still there ... we still miss u so much ... wenever i woke up in the morning, i sure to tink wat were u doing up there and wen i was about to sleep , i will be thinking of you too ... been trying hard not to teared but i failed to do so ...

it's been 4 months since u left us.......how r u Ma? i bet u muz be enjoying ur life at Pureland =)

no worries bout us. uncles and aunties had been calling and dropping by our house from time to time to make sure we r ok =)
even cousins sumtimes will call us up and ask us to join them for breakfast

kenot be deny that ur family is the greatest family we had! caring and loving.

even that day wen Ta Yi came bek from Spore, she ask us out for dinner. San Yi and Popo tag along too. San Yi's reaction was just like u Ma, that i nearly teared wen i saw the way she tok and her body language....den Ta Yi's face look just like u! d moment i saw her, i cried ....

Ma, i heard sumting bout u from a fren of urs. wen u were a nurse at Jasin long long time ago, and this poor and really sick communist came over to buy medicine. u noe its againts the rules for helping communist, but with ur gud heart u sold the medicine to him eventhough u noe u're not allow to do so.

somehow, police found out bout it and they were looking for u....but with the help of God, they didnt manage to track u. and they drop the case ...

there were one time one of my ex college mate actually called me up around 3++am and complaining that she's having difficulty in breathing. i didnt noe wat to do but to wake u up and told u bout this issue. without asking much, u quickly woke up, dress up and follow me to pick up my fren and send her to hospital. u were there to take care of her while me standing there dont noe wat to do.

Ma, im so proud of u =) how i wish i had half of your kindness....

but Ma, i still don get it....y God had to take u away from us since there's so many gud deeds that u had done?

again...its all depend on fate...

Goddess of Mercy, Kuan Yin is one of your most favourite Buddhist God. i remember few years back, wen it was Kuan Yin's birthday u told me to drop by at Cheng Hoon Teng and light a josstick for Her.

Kuan Yin has 3 birthdays in a year. One wen She's born, two wen She became a Buddhist Monk and three wen she became a real Buddha.

and i've realised that the day wen u leave us (in chinese calender), it was Kuan Yin's birthday and wen its your 100th day, it was Kuan Yin's birthday too!!!

Ma, i guess it had been arranged by Her. She really loves you just like how much u had love her and how much of love u had poured to us. remember once u were chanting to yourself and u say u saw Amitabha and Kuan Yin smiling at you? =)

i guess you're happy over there with the other Buddhist God , especially Her; Kuan Yin.

Ma, i still miss you so much ... and im listening to one of your favourite song now "Nobody's Child" ..........

Yesterday Once More - The Carpenters

When I was young

Id listened to the radio

Waitin for my favorite songs

Waiting they played Id sing along

It made me smile

Those were such happy times

And not so long ago

How I wondered where theyd gone

But theyre back again

Just like a long lost friend

All the songs I loved so well

(*) every sha-la-la-la

Every wo-wo-wo

Still shines

Every shing-a-ling-a-ling

That theyre starting to sings

So fine

When they get to the part

Where hes breakin her heart

It can really make me cry

Just like before

Its yesterday once more

Lookin back on how it was

In years gone by

And the good times that I had

Makes today seem rather sad

So much has changed

It was songs of love that

I would sing to then

And Id memorize each word

Those old melodies

Still sound so good to me

As they melt the years away

Repeat (*)

All my best memories

Come back clearly to me

Some can even make me cry

Just like before

Its yesterday once more

Repeat (*)

one of your fav song from The Carpenters.

i cud still remember ur beautiful voice while humming and singing this song .....

vice versa

i remember that i will teared in d bus a lil last time wen i was on my way to KL..tats bcoz i have to leave u behind. and the other day, wen i was on my way to KL i teared in d bus cos u had left us ...

when i was at KL enjoying myself, u came to my mind at times .. but i divert my mind and focus on other stuff instead.

as i was packing my bag and preparing to go bek mlk, i ask sayang "dowan go bek can anot???". last year, wenever i was about to go bek Mlk, the excitement was there. i was like "yay yay, we r going bek...balik kampung". but now, the situation was like vice versa.

yesterday, i was out wif karen to pick amy up at Mlk Sentral. wen i was about to park my car waiting for amy, i saw one woman look just like u Ma. i keep quiet and keep on staring at her. after quiet for 5 minutes, i told karen "karen, u see that woman over there. she look just like Mama huh?".

karen quickly move over to me and ask where? i pointed to her and silent for 5 seconds. "ya la, she look like mummy leh. can we go there and hug her???". i ask her don be crazy. i was trying real hard to be strong not to cry, which i didnt cried, but i cried in my heart.

me and karen watch her until she leave... *sigh*