it's been 4 months since u left us.......how r u Ma? i bet u muz be enjoying ur life at Pureland =)

no worries bout us. uncles and aunties had been calling and dropping by our house from time to time to make sure we r ok =)
even cousins sumtimes will call us up and ask us to join them for breakfast

kenot be deny that ur family is the greatest family we had! caring and loving.

even that day wen Ta Yi came bek from Spore, she ask us out for dinner. San Yi and Popo tag along too. San Yi's reaction was just like u Ma, that i nearly teared wen i saw the way she tok and her body language....den Ta Yi's face look just like u! d moment i saw her, i cried ....

Ma, i heard sumting bout u from a fren of urs. wen u were a nurse at Jasin long long time ago, and this poor and really sick communist came over to buy medicine. u noe its againts the rules for helping communist, but with ur gud heart u sold the medicine to him eventhough u noe u're not allow to do so.

somehow, police found out bout it and they were looking for u....but with the help of God, they didnt manage to track u. and they drop the case ...

there were one time one of my ex college mate actually called me up around 3++am and complaining that she's having difficulty in breathing. i didnt noe wat to do but to wake u up and told u bout this issue. without asking much, u quickly woke up, dress up and follow me to pick up my fren and send her to hospital. u were there to take care of her while me standing there dont noe wat to do.

Ma, im so proud of u =) how i wish i had half of your kindness....

but Ma, i still don get it....y God had to take u away from us since there's so many gud deeds that u had done?

again...its all depend on fate...

Goddess of Mercy, Kuan Yin is one of your most favourite Buddhist God. i remember few years back, wen it was Kuan Yin's birthday u told me to drop by at Cheng Hoon Teng and light a josstick for Her.

Kuan Yin has 3 birthdays in a year. One wen She's born, two wen She became a Buddhist Monk and three wen she became a real Buddha.

and i've realised that the day wen u leave us (in chinese calender), it was Kuan Yin's birthday and wen its your 100th day, it was Kuan Yin's birthday too!!!

Ma, i guess it had been arranged by Her. She really loves you just like how much u had love her and how much of love u had poured to us. remember once u were chanting to yourself and u say u saw Amitabha and Kuan Yin smiling at you? =)

i guess you're happy over there with the other Buddhist God , especially Her; Kuan Yin.

Ma, i still miss you so much ... and im listening to one of your favourite song now "Nobody's Child" ..........

Yesterday Once More - The Carpenters

When I was young

Id listened to the radio

Waitin for my favorite songs

Waiting they played Id sing along

It made me smile

Those were such happy times

And not so long ago

How I wondered where theyd gone

But theyre back again

Just like a long lost friend

All the songs I loved so well

(*) every sha-la-la-la

Every wo-wo-wo

Still shines

Every shing-a-ling-a-ling

That theyre starting to sings

So fine

When they get to the part

Where hes breakin her heart

It can really make me cry

Just like before

Its yesterday once more

Lookin back on how it was

In years gone by

And the good times that I had

Makes today seem rather sad

So much has changed

It was songs of love that

I would sing to then

And Id memorize each word

Those old melodies

Still sound so good to me

As they melt the years away

Repeat (*)

All my best memories

Come back clearly to me

Some can even make me cry

Just like before

Its yesterday once more

Repeat (*)

one of your fav song from The Carpenters.

i cud still remember ur beautiful voice while humming and singing this song .....

vice versa

i remember that i will teared in d bus a lil last time wen i was on my way to KL..tats bcoz i have to leave u behind. and the other day, wen i was on my way to KL i teared in d bus cos u had left us ...

when i was at KL enjoying myself, u came to my mind at times .. but i divert my mind and focus on other stuff instead.

as i was packing my bag and preparing to go bek mlk, i ask sayang "dowan go bek can anot???". last year, wenever i was about to go bek Mlk, the excitement was there. i was like "yay yay, we r going bek...balik kampung". but now, the situation was like vice versa.

yesterday, i was out wif karen to pick amy up at Mlk Sentral. wen i was about to park my car waiting for amy, i saw one woman look just like u Ma. i keep quiet and keep on staring at her. after quiet for 5 minutes, i told karen "karen, u see that woman over there. she look just like Mama huh?".

karen quickly move over to me and ask where? i pointed to her and silent for 5 seconds. "ya la, she look like mummy leh. can we go there and hug her???". i ask her don be crazy. i was trying real hard to be strong not to cry, which i didnt cried, but i cried in my heart.

me and karen watch her until she leave... *sigh*

meaningless life

there's so many stuff that i wanted to tell u, miss telling u my stories..... *sigh*

till today, i kept wondering to myself why God took u away from us ... still wondering. i guess u had repay all ur past life debts. moreover i tink God felt sad wen He sees u feel so sick and weak, i guess He doesnt want u to suffer more pain and He really loves u more den we do. tats y He want u to be with Him now.

wen u were terribly sick, i always pray to Him asking for forgiveness from our family and beg Him to give u one more chance Ma. i even told Him that if He really want to bring u along, pls bring u to a better place.

few years bek u used to tell us that u're not sure whether u will have a long life or not and u will say that if ur 'eyes closed' u will not be able to see us again. it hurt me so much wen u said that .... Ma, i guess u noe u life journey wouldnt be that long, thats y u kept on hinting us asking us to take care of ourselves wen u're gone. *sigh*

everytime b4 i sleep, i will hope u will appear in my dream. sumtimes u do appear, sumtimes u dont.

new year without u is meaningless, mother's day without u is meaningless ... seriously, life without u is meaningless . everyting seems to be so meaningless ...

nobody else just like u Ma

Ma, yesterday i was chatting wif Karen. i ask whether she get used to it to be alone at home now or not. she say day time no issue but at nite she need sumbody to be wif her. she ask me why, i said wat if i go over to KL and work now? she replied ask ta jie come bek home early. den she said "sigh, y didnt mama wait for me to finish up my secondary? 3 more years leh". silent for 5 seconds, i look at her and tot she's gonna cry. so i said "don cry ah dont cry ah". den she look at me and said "im not gonna cry. it seems tat u the one tat cried a lot". den i burst out to tears again! and she said "don make me pour one pail of water at u ah". hahahah, she was trying to cheer me up ..

just now, i was in d room wif Amy and Karen. den i recall bek sumting. and i was smiling to myself and i shared wif Amy and Karen. i said "mama got one time asked wen i wanna get married wor. i told her no money, she said no money nvm wan, can engage 1st ma. i told her no money to engage la and mama said engage no nid money wan la". both of them smile and Karen said "Mama want to see u get married. she wanna have grandkids". i straight away interrupt and said "enuf ah". and i burst out to tears again .... even now ...

Ma, i manage to cook one of the dishes u taught me and it turn out well!! =) i even cooked radish soup. i've never feel so great in cooking b4! ah mah and popo came over to visit us today =) both of them really take care of us well ... no worries Ma ... miss u so much ...