my grandma,aunties,uncles,cousins,nieces,nephews...and if only she's in d pic...everything will be perfect *sigh*

i was having a terrible cough since laz thursday till today. having sleepless nite due to the cough which woke me up.

i remember last time wenever i cough in d middle of d nite, she will come to my room, one hand holding cough syrup with spoon and the other hand holding a glass of water. she will tap my shoulder and wif her soft voice she says "girl wake up and take ur medicine. u had been coughing non stop". i woke up grab the glass of water from her and she fed me the medicine and drink d water den. she will den apply some Vicks on my chest and i just went off to sleep without saying thank you.

d more i tink of it d more heartache i was...y didnt i say thank you? i had never given the chance den...

i miss d times she take care of me, regret never had d chance to say thank you...

as CNY is approaching, my heartache even much...its another year without her in our life...

its been 2 months since i update here. d missing feeling is still there, thinking wat were u doing up there...thinking whether did u ever drop by to visit us...sumtimes tears flow down without realising it.

d other day, went to MMC to visit a fren of mine. i pass by the room which u finally decide to leave the world and went to a better place. my heart ache, i nearly teared but i hold bek...sigh

till today...i still tink a lot about u...

i was browsing thru the magazines at The Borders and this poster catch my attention...

wedding day was supposed to be a happy event...but sumhow this bridegroom wasnt in a smiling face. right there in the poster stated "Wish you were here to share my happiest day,Mum". her mum did not survived in cervical cancer.

i noe how she feel...wenever i attend sumbody's wedding, my heart ache...i was putting myself into the bridegroom shoes and i nearly teared ... tinking tat u wont be here with me at this very big day. i remember wen the doctor ask u "do u wan to witness all ur daughter getting married and drink your son-in-law's tea?". u were nodding your head ... but it sadden me tat u really do not have the chance to witness ur girls getting married in front of u

last 2 years, your surprise birthday...i took leave on friday and shoot bek to mlk on thrusday after work without letting you noe. you were surprised wen i show up at the end of the birthday song.

tis year, which is on 11 July 2008 (chinese calander), i took leave on friday and shoot bek to mlk on thursday after work, but not to celebrate your birthday...but for your one year death anniversary. as usual, popo, ah yi and uncle shed tears

mother's day without u.... =(

and i still......miss u....... =(