meaningless life

there's so many stuff that i wanted to tell u, miss telling u my stories..... *sigh*

till today, i kept wondering to myself why God took u away from us ... still wondering. i guess u had repay all ur past life debts. moreover i tink God felt sad wen He sees u feel so sick and weak, i guess He doesnt want u to suffer more pain and He really loves u more den we do. tats y He want u to be with Him now.

wen u were terribly sick, i always pray to Him asking for forgiveness from our family and beg Him to give u one more chance Ma. i even told Him that if He really want to bring u along, pls bring u to a better place.

few years bek u used to tell us that u're not sure whether u will have a long life or not and u will say that if ur 'eyes closed' u will not be able to see us again. it hurt me so much wen u said that .... Ma, i guess u noe u life journey wouldnt be that long, thats y u kept on hinting us asking us to take care of ourselves wen u're gone. *sigh*

everytime b4 i sleep, i will hope u will appear in my dream. sumtimes u do appear, sumtimes u dont.

new year without u is meaningless, mother's day without u is meaningless ... seriously, life without u is meaningless . everyting seems to be so meaningless ...