last week, ta yi from spore and siao yi frm seremban came bek to Malacca. yay~! since my mum is not around anymore, my aunties are just like our mother this time. been calling us from time to time to ask bout us..chat with us and bring us out for dinner wen they're at Malacca.

so we met up for dinner together with popo. popo was so thin this time. she didnt put on her usual smiling face whenever she sees us. unlike last time, she's the happy go lucky type. she will tell jokes with us and gossip with us too, just like my mum...like Mother like Daughter. don mess with my popo cos she's d modern type! but now, her body shrink and her eyes swollen (been crying practically everyday just like me). i did tok to her not to cry as she had just went for cataract operation and its not good for her eyes...she answer me "The day your mum went till today, i still cry over her till today as well". i burst out to tears...even now as i was typing this..


while we were having dinner together, i was observing her tiny mouth munching the food. her eyes was watery and red, i noe that she's trying hard not to cry in front of me and my sisters.


by the time we finish our dinner and left the place, i saw her took out her handkerchief and wipe off her tears...


the next day, we met up for lunch. while ta yi was chatting with us, ta yi took out one picture from her handbag.

last year CNY pic they took together. she said "this pic is already 1 year. at that time, ur mum actually knows she's not feeling well ady, but she didnt see doc. her body shrink a bit huh?".

we quiet and i ask "Why did u bring that pic out?".

Ta yi answered "I aways carry this pic with me wherever i go".

My heart sank....

somehow, whenever im doing cooking alone at your kitchen, i will feel that u're standing close to me and gave me a proud smile .... proud smile that says i'm a grown up now ....

so wat im grown up? wats the point of growing up without u?

8 months without u was like a disaster...i seriously missed your voice and your laughter and wenever you join us making jokes around ....

again the same old question always comes to my mind...y must it had to be you!? i asked God this question wenever i do my prayers, but my heart went soft later on and i ask God to guard you all the time...taking care or you wen we r not around with u

Ma, can u drop by and visit us from time to time? i wish to see u soon.......