2 months since u're gone

How r u there Ma? im sure u're happy wif ur life at pureland. no worries bout us over here, we'll take care of ourselves.

ystday ta yi called from spore and ask bout us. she burst out to tears the moment she was toking to me. ta yi, the happy go lucky person, had never cried in front of us b4 . she had always been cracking jokes especially with u Ma, she said u had always love her jokes so much wic is true becoz wenever both of u were toking on d fon, u will be laughing happily all d way. and i always smile seeing u so happy. ta yi at the age of 60 now had been facing sum difficulties .... in terms of health. so i told her not to worried bout us, we will take care of ourselves, and i ask her to take care of herself there.

i remember wen the very 1st time u were diagnosed with nose cancer. u went in and out from MMC few times too. wenever u're at hospital tat time, u always crack jokes with the nurses. the very last time wen u discharged from MMC, the nurses say "see u aunty!". and with ur spontanoues respond, u said "I dowan to see u all again". and u happily bid farewell to them.

luck wasnt with u wen u were diagnosed with cancer for the 2nd time. *sigh*. there were one time wen u're at the hospital, ur stomach bloated and u feel the tightness. u told the nurse tat u're having pain and u said "perut saya sakit, macam mau meletup". u still can crack joke at that time Ma.

and another time was wen a nurse came in, u complain to the nurse tat we make u not comfortable, and u said "dia orang macam hantu la, buat saya tak selesa". the nurse walk off with a smile.

there were one time wen u were resting, i help u to apply lotion at ur legs. den i suddenly burst out to tears. u heard me crying and open up ur eyes and ask why? i stop applying lotion, u grab both of my hands and i said "Ma, u will be alrite.". u gave me the look as though trying to say "i hav no choice gal. its all fated".

the other day popo told me she hope u'll appear at her dream. so far we 5 siblings had dream of u. at times 3 yi said she smell ur presence. tq for dropping by Ma.

Ma, im trying real hard to be strong. but i always break down wen im alone, even at the office. i wish u cud guide me the way to be strong just like how u guide me last time.

Dearest Ma, do take care ... we shall meet at pureland then. bye ...