i remember last time wenever i come bek , i will call out and said "Ma, im bek!!!".
den u will respon bek saying "I heard u" or u will come in front n greet me wif a smile.
but now ... even if i call for u, u will never show up
Ma, i still miss u. im trying hard to be strong, but the memories always come bek ... i wish i can hug u rite now
this coming saturday will be your 49days. wic means we will not be praying (i just hate to use the word 'praying' on u, Ma) u at home. we will be visiting u at Melaka Memorial Park instead. sigh ...
wen doctor told us u're gone, we went into the emergency room and look at ur motionless body. u were covered wif cloth, we cudnt see ur face. i was observing ur stomach, hoping to see some breathing movement. hoping for miracle AGAIN! but i was lying to myself AGAIN! there's no such thing as miracle!
if i cud turn bek the time, i hope tat the person who is suffering is not u Ma, but is me. i really want u to stay longer and witness all ur children getting married and giving u grandkids. and hearing ur grandkids calling u "popo".
sumtimes, i just wish tat i cud leave soon so tat i can be wif u Ma. i noe im stupid, but seriously ........ i miss u too much
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