r u trying to say gudbye?

few years bek ....

a fren of mine called my housefon asking for me. my mum pick up d fon ...

Mum : Hello
My Fren : eh hello! later u bla bla bla (cudnt recall wat he asked)
Mum : U looking for who?
My Fren : oh sorry aunty. ur voice just like tricia.
Mum : of coz la! she's my daughter .

tats my mum, easy going person.

i went jogging ystday wif 2 girlfrens of mine and seriously i was having so much fun ...

till just now wen i was driving bek from work, u came to my mind again. i cud still remember very well ur look wen the paramedics carried u with the stretcher. u look at me with a sad face with watery eyes. r u trying to say gud bye to us Ma?

u always ask us to take care of ourselves..but u didnt even bother bout urself...ystday popo drop by and said "u ask us to take care of our own health but y didnt u take care of urself too?"

i remembered few months bek u complain to me tat u had a bad back pain. i didnt say much but just ask u to rest more. i shud have said "i'll take u for cek up". i shud have said tat!!!! y didnt i say so!!! why!!! if oni i brought u for cek up tat time, mayb we cud had detect the cancer earlier...mayb tat cancer wasnt at tat serious stage...whereby it cud cured...Ma, im sorry. im such a loser

Ma, i still miss u...very much ...